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Everybody wants a reason for everything
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It's so much easier with someone or something to blame
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I've always struggled at the root of the problem
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Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense?
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I've never spent a lot on finding a remedy
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I guess I figured that it hurt for a reason, I guess
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That's why I've always turned to writing it down
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Not just in stories, but the letters in between, and
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I guess that's why it haunts the pages of everything
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To self-examine
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I think the thing is that I shut off from everything
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From friends and family and my own ambitions
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From having fun; I just shut off from everything
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Self-defeating? Yeah, probably, but I don't
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Know that I had total control over it
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And I'm not sure it even matters why
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Sometimes things happen and you can't do anything
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Plus, I'm the only one who deals with it anyway
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So if everyone could do me a favor and just
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Put their fingers down, I'd — and keep your mouths
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Sorry, I know I seem angry. I'm not, I...;
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I promise, I just know I did this to me
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And I will deal with it accordingly, and I
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Don't need opinions from those never a part of it
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Don't need them pointing out my problems, they're mine
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Don't need reminders; I know better than anyone
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And yeah I know, I should be finding another way
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I know that I should be out seeking a substitute
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But just forgetting never really made sense to me
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So I haven't been
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Do I feel embarrassed about it?
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I think you know the answer to that
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I think you'd probably feel a little bit
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Embarrassed for me, wouldn't you?
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I know I should've moved on ages ago
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Been happy already, but
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It's never been that easy for me
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Or maybe it was me that made it so hard
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I know I've only ever tried a handful of times
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To sever this thing torturing me
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It never got me anywhere
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With anyone; no friendship or hobby, no lover's bed worked
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But looking back I maybe never tried hard enough
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And it is my fault
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Maybe I never tried at all
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______________
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Name a Letter
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Artist La Dispute
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Album Wildlife
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